This is hard, and I’m not sure that I can do this anymore.
I know someday I’ll look back and all this won’t seem real,
but Lord right now I need you to know just how I feel.
"When there are no words to say
and no prayer that I can pray, hear my heart.
When I don’t have strength to try
and I’ve cried all I can cry, hear my heart.
Cause you know every fear and every doubt I cannot speak.
You know all the ways I need you and all the ways I’m weak, so I’ll be quiet
So you can hear my heart."
When I first heard the song, I sent it to a friend who was going through a rough time with tougher roads ahead. But I'll never forget the time the song first resonated with me. I was driving home after receiving some less than good news. I was struggling, talking to God, but mad at the same time over the whole situation. The song started, and then the tears started. I felt exactly as the song started that no one had ever been where I was, no one had walked down the path I was on. I was upset, and I wanted someone to understand where I was coming from.
I didn't have words, because God had heard them all. I was tired of crying about the situation and begging God to do something about it again. Thankfully this song reminded me of the promise that God hears our hearts. He already knew my situation, my doubts and fears that I was afraid to speak.
The second verse talks about recalling a phrase or melody that comforts us when we need to hear a word. It's interesting because in so many times since then, this song has become the melody that comes to mind. It's so comforting that sometimes when we don't know how to pray or can't come up with words, that God still hears us. In Romans 8:26, Paul writes:
"And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don't know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words."
Sometimes words just fail to convey what we are feeling and going through. And in those quiet moments, I'm so thankful that God can hear our hearts.